Testing my Resolve

resolveResolve: firmness of purpose or intent; determination.

I believe mine is being tested and I am up for the challenge. These past few weeks my Camino preparation has been partially thwarted by a few things.

First, my plantar fasciitis as a result of my standing for more than ten hours a day during the 1o day craft fair. Fortunately, my trusty chiropractor Dr Greg has done wonders to help me deal and remedy this situation.

Of recent, my hubby who now works in a daycare brought home some nasty germs and he went through a tough two weeks. I thought I had somehow escaped the grip of said germs but to my dismay, they invaded my body and I am now nursing a bronchitis. Through the care of our local clinic, I am aggressively attacking those nasty germs with rest, top of the line meds and lots of positive thinking.

Last week I decided to check my reservation as I was considering modifying my return date and it was then that I discovered my return flight had been cancelled by the airline. Surprised that I had not been advised of this, I came to the conclusion that getting a refund for the original ticket and procuring a new one was the best approach. As of today March 25th, a mere three weeks before my departure, I find myself without an airline ticket.

So here’s how I envisage it all working out. Tomorrow I will confirm my return date with my French Camino friends, and find a ticket within the same price range as my last one.

My lungs will get clearer and healthier by the hour and in a few days I will start feeling the joy of recovery and my bronchitis will be a thing of the past.

As far as my foot and my new orthotics – well spring is JUST around the corner and the persistent snow will start to melt, uncovering kilometers and kiloometers of roads ready to be visited by my two feet!
All will fall into place, and on April 23rd I will set out to take my first steps of my second Camino journey.
Life is grand!

The Camino – Spiritual preparation

This is my father's rosary - he passed away when I was just nine

This is my father’s rosary – he passed away when I was just nine

Back in March of 2011 I spent a lot of time preparing for my first Camino experience. The preparation was 80% physical, 20% emotional and not at all spiritual.

On the physical plane, I ensure my body would be ready for the long distance walks. I trained with my new equipment and ensure I had put at least 100 kilometers of walking behind me. I bought all the necessary equipment, read as much as was available, and I deemed myself ready for the departure.

On the emotional plane, I mostly tried to anticipate how I would react being away from my family for more than 6 weeks. I had so often been away from them during my work projects, but somehow this was a very different separation.
I vowed to them daily updates on my blog (when at all possible) and periodic calls.

I didn’t even consider needing any preparations of the spiritual plane. Yet, I was embarking on a highly regarded as spiritual journey, and I carried with me a load of baggage. “My backpack” you may ask? Not at all. I carried the stress of a highly visible, highly high paced, highly stressful career. I had left my many roles and opted to rush to the Camino within a few weeks of my career departure.

Being a true “Type A” I assumed I could get rid of all that stress within a few weeks of walking. I wanted everything to slowly dissipate as my feet walked kilometers after kilometers. How silly of me to assume I had any control over that transformation.

MY first Camino was so amazing, and I learned so much during that month. Looking back now, I know that I likely would have learned even more had I taken some time to prepare spiritually.

“How does one prepare spiritually?” you may wonder. In my case, it means to create a clean and open mind. To lessen any concerns or focus that may occupy too much space in my mind. It means to cast aside worries about things over which I have no control. It means to forgive what can be forgiven to allow more openness in my heart. It means to be in a state of mind whereby I would undertake this second Camino with as much openness, gratitude, non-judgmental eyes and ears, and a heart willing to give as much as accept.

This time around, my preparation consists of updating my equipment and preparing my injured foot for the long hauls, but these activities are only taking up about 20% of my effort. The rest is solely spiritual.

I discovered that although the Camino gives, we also need to give in return. I want to be the most I can be as I embark on this new journey.
I want a clean new book waiting for words of wisdoms, beautiful impromptu moments, and colorful landscapes.

The efforts of my upcoming 35 days will include long walks, but mostly longer contemplation and uncluttering of my mind!