It’s all in me…

Everything I need to succeed in my projects is all in me. It’s in my mind, in my heart, in my soul. It’s all there – – the challenge is to align my thinking to reach those elements needed to succeed. Yesterday I went through my boxes of pictures looking for a specific set of photos to create an album for someone in my family. As I was going through my old pictures, I cam across pictures of me when I was 16 through 24, and I was amazed at how much I had changed.

Life happens; we age – everyone does. But some of us don’t always do the right thing for our health, and I am totally one of those people. My corporate lifestyle got the best of me. Continuous travel, endless work hours, late dinners and often fast quick meals… I won’t put the blame on all that, ultimately, I was the one who allowed those challenges to get the best of me. I take responsibility for that.

So after 20 years of this lifestyle, I do not look like I did when I was 16, 18 or 24. I do not move like I did when I was 16, 18 or 24. I don’t have the stamina that I had when I was 16, 18 or 24. Wrinkles are part of life, getting older is part of life, letting that change you is a choice…
What I do know, and I stand by it, is that it’s always a choice. Each day, our decisions are … choices. We can change the course of our life by making different choices. Expecting different results from the same choices – – not a good move! Trust me, I have tried…

After seeing those pictures and for a short time, wallowing in “Ah, to have that jawline again…”, “Wow, I had a nice waist”, “Sigh – to have those legs again” I heard the following words… “Dear, your waist is till there, your legs are still your legs” and it took me a while to realize the wisdom of those words… My Sweetie said the right words but I needed time to let them sink in…

He’s right – that jawline is still there… just not as visible at this point in time… that waist is still there, just not as visible at this point in time… those legs are still there, likely even stronger than when I was 16, 18 or 24 (thank you marathons, half marathons and 10k, not to mention the Camino journey).

So now, looking at that jawline of my 18 year old self, I know it’s still there; admiring those legs on my 20 year old self I know they are still there, and starring at the waist of my 16 year old self, I know it’s still there… I just need to whittle away the results of the not-so-sound 30-50 year old self who let work take over her life. I need to uncover those attributes that still are there, with a little help of hundreds of hours of exercise and hundreds of healthier meals. I just have to draw on my inner strength to continue the path I am on – to become healthier and stronger. I just have to draw on my faith that all that is needed, is right here, in me –
It’s all in me!

I now will let those pictures be a focus, a goal, a target… perhaps not ever to be an exact match but enough to make me feel I’ve reached my potential… because, it’s all in me !!
Life is grand…
PS Thanks Sweetie for those words – they meant more to me than you likely thought they would!

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