It happened somewhat suddenly … I was walking this morning, all alone, no one to be seen.
I wasn’t thinking much, mostly just taking everything in. Then it started – at first it was just a noticeable feeling of not even discomfort but something different, from my core.
At first I thought perhaps I had drank my water too quickly. I felt it get more intense, but it wasn’t anything I had ever felt before. I stopped walking a took off my pack thinking perhaps I wasn’t carrying a balanced load.
The feeling intensified, but again it wasn’t painful, just more of whatever it was. Then all at once the feeling moved to my throat then for no apparent reason I knew of, tears started rolling down my face.
I can’t even call it crying as I wasn’t feeling sad, upset, mournful or anything else. I couldn’t help but think of the movie “the Grinch” played by Jim Carey. When his character grew a heart and he felt compassion and caring for the first time, a tear fell on his face and he said “I’m leaking!!”
That is the only way I can describe what happened. I leaked tears!! It was so unreal yet I knew better to just let things happened.
It lasted only a few minutes and it wasn’t something I had ever experienced before in my entire life.
Whatever this was, be it a release of tension, overwhelm from the beauty surrounding me, or just nothing specific I can say for sure I felt taken aback but not worried.
I am told much happens on this Camino – I will keep an open mind and just live and experience it one moment at a time. I won’t analyze anything, just LIVE everything with all my heart.